my greatest memory

seeing you hurts my heart, seeing you happy hurts me even more.

sometimes i just want to break down again, but i know i'm stronger than that. i am not pathetic.

we see eachother and don't acknowledge eachother's presence. our backs against eachother, who will be the first to say hi? why is it that our pride is so high? we continue with the conversations of our social groups and we walk our seperate ways. yet, we still end up in the same place. we exchange glances hoping that we won't catch each other's eyes. but everytime my eyes wonder to look for you, i see your eyes looking at me. that makes me question if you were looking for me too?

we caught eachother red handed. so we both smiled and waved to eachother. you're at the other side of the room, but you still make your way towards me. at this moment i'm in shock, because our backs are no longer against eachother. i'm scared. scared for me. scared for what i might do. i'm scared i might accidently kiss you. you hug me, and i give you a light hug back. i drop my arms to my side, and you hug me tighter. why are you doing this to me? making it harder for me than it already is. so i lift my arms again and squeeze you like i used to. i burry my face in your chest, like how i used to. my friends watch me, knowing the pain you're putting me through, but it doesn't matter to me. i'm in your arms again.

i let go, you let go. we have a brief conversation. you said it was time for you to leave, so you hugged me again. i pinched you on your side, so you twitch. you did the same to me. we both laughed and giggled and parted our ways.

i was hoping that you'd kiss me on my forhead again, cause for that moment it felt as if i didn't lose you.

this is my greatest memory, you by my side. i can picture you here with me, and if i tried, this can't be a crime, at least I can hold you in my mind.