yes, even stars break

a conversation with a friend got me thinking about friendship, trust, and love.

i honestly don't know about any of them. who are my friends? who are the people i trust? and what is love?

friends are people who generally fuck you over and mistaken your trust (not all but most). people say "i got you, don't worry" and all that bullshit, but the next thing you know is that they are shit talking about you. like what the fuck is up with that. trust? i got none. i need to learn how to gain some or do i? it is a dog eat dog world afterall.

now love. i had an interesting conversation with somebody today and its starting to make me question if you can determine how much you love a person by how long you were with them. I think you can't. I think love is love, it is what it is. It can't be determined by how long you've been with someone, how many fights you fought, how many tears were shed. Love is love. there are no words to describe it, it is what it is. i also said something i thought i would have never said before, "love is a battle, how many times do you have to fight to win it?" shit, i felt so deep. but seriously, how many times do you have to fight with the person that you 'love' to show that you love him/her? how many times do you gotta run back? how many times do you have to hurt to actually feel loved?

i really don't know. my thoughts just run on some next level battery which questions everything in life. life's confusing, "life's a climb" LMAO.